Are you a contributor?

 I am...

So what do I mean by a contributor. I have come to the conclusion that I will not be rich, not that a miracle can't happen but the more I play the lottery the more I lose. Although I love my job it will not make me rich or famous it is to contribute to taxes.

I speak of the lottery because it is the quickest way to get rich and so as everyone else I played standing in line like an assembly of people hoping and wishing for money to take all my worries away.

This goes beyond lottery of course, looking back on my life I never was the lucky one. Don't get me wrong I am not saying I have a lot of bad luck just no good luck. I'm sure you know someone who is always winning something in raffles at work, or bingo and you wonder "why" I don't win sometimes.

It's because like me you are a contributor, or you may hear people say " there are winners and losers". I don't care for that statement as I am not a loser as much as not a winner.

Once I came to this realization it was liberating and I see this as a positive not a negative. I no longer play lottery like I use to because I know I will not win as being rich is not my road in this life time. 

I will still play the big jackpots LOL but in the past I would play everything trying to win, it's almost like being suckered in by a pyramid scheme if you think about it.

Anyway, now I put this realization on every aspect of my life by no longer having expectations of the dream house I want, the body I want or even the love I want. The common denominator is "Want".

Some may think I have just simply given up on life but you are far from the truth, I now appreciate all that I have instead of trying to get more. While I spent so much time and energy trying to be a winner but feeling like a loser, I now spend that time enjoying what I have and being thankful for it.

I really didn't realize how much I had until I stopped trying to get more, for example I live alone in a 2 bedroom 2.5 bath and have clothes, shoes and jewelry and I am able to buy food or go out to eat and yet I was still trying to get more stuff instead of stepping back and see my life as it really is.

I wasted so much time not smelling the roses by trying to plant more and more bushes, then die and leave it to someone else to enjoy or destroy.

 In conclusion of this eye opening revelation I will now enjoy my roses and spend the remaining time smelling the wonderful fragrance of life, and enjoying the beauty of who I am and the love I have in my life.

 I am a winner.

Just my thoughts...